I’m really trying to better myself because these past few months have been hell on earth. So much has happened that I don’t even see the point of me doing anything anymore. I just been wanting to give up. Now when something good finally happened I got my hopes up to only get them crushed.. Like wtf.. Like I feel like I keep getting kicked while I’m down. I should just stay down because it’s a never ending cycle of disappointment and failure. I really give up this time.